My bestsisterfriend is getting married this May & I just want to write some things out.
Sooo... I've also been feeling rather disconnected from the whole wedding shebang... because Im the only out of state bridesmaid. AAAANNNNDDDD its not like im a few hours away, Im 14 HOURS away... so all the fittings... i miss, & the little get togethers... i miss, and the bridal shower... i'll likely miss... and Im bummed out about that. We've been friends since we were like 11 & 12. We've been through SO stinkin much together & I just want to be able to be there with her... I want to see her smiling about her gifts & laughing at the shower & I want to help her pick household things for her registry... I just want to be there. I want to be there for the times when she realizes that she's getting married for real real, like taxes... I want to be there when she sends out the save the dates & invitations & gets all misty eyed but then tries to hide it but I wont let her cuz Im trying to take a picture of it... lol... I wish I could just be there...
Sometimes growing up & moving away gets really hard. Its hard being so far away from family & the friends that are just like family. Sometimes phone calls arent enough. Sometimes you need to be in the room, not saying anything. Sometimes you just need your best friend close by.
Ugh... so now Im all weepy & have cried onto my laptop :/ I love you Ambs & I wish Alabama was at least 12 hours closer to Delaware. :-*