Sadness to Calm

It is ok not to always be happy.
What isnt ok is dropping roots in your unhappiness because it's "easier"...

Sure laying in bed all day because you're sad sounds great... You dont do anything but roll over and tuck the covers tighter over your head. Maybe get up for a snack, just to return to the waiting arms of your rumpled bedsheets. It's quite easy to not shower and eat ice cream from the carton with a serving spoon. It's easy to sit slouched on the sofa with said ice cream in one hand and the tv remote in the other.

It's very easy to become a victim to your sadness...

Today was one of those days. Lots of fighting tears, muscling through frustration, worry, and all manner of negativity... I honestly wanted to give up on the day and bury myself in the bed, but due to responsibilities, i chose not to... I kept trying to count and recount the good in today. Trying to highlight the positivity within this day. It took me, literally, all day to come back to a bit of balance.

I think that happiness, today, was more a place of calm within the storm. That calm took the form of tasks at work, driving in the car, focusing on the beautiful sunny sky... I think something important to remember on days like this, is there is always a choice.

There is always a choice.

Each day, each time the sun rises, each time you wake up, there are always choices.

Today I choose to find a way to return to a sense of calm...